It seems there are more and more people in terrible situations.   I recently listened to some people who had lived in, survived and then worked through the tsunami in Japan.  Some of my friends were evacuated from their homes in Austin Texas.  I see reports of earthquakes, wars, famines, hurricanes and financial unrest.

I as I have watched and spoken with friends over the past couple of years I see sickness, death, cancer, bankruptcies, divorce and much of suffering.  Maybe I notice because of my situation.  I feel powerless to help.  Sometimes I try, sometimes I think I will attempt but shrink away.  Sometimes I try to help and am pushed away.

I wish I could give these people peace. I wish I could find more peace in my life.

It seems the last few years I have been constantly starting over and trying to reinvent myself. Every few months I’m at it again, reading some new philosophy, a tweak on an old idea, I’ve tried many new approaches, taken lots of advice and for what?

I’ve found a bunch of things that I haven’t been able to make work. Not so much that they are bad ideas, but I just can’t make them gain any traction in my situation. It also seems that lots of things I am associated with seem to spin out of control quickly, and being on the edge of most of these situations I am spun off violently.

So here I am again trying to start another situation.

I had no idea how fragile the financial situation of my last company was.   They lost a couple of customers and decided to lay me off.

Lucky for me I had been looking for sometime and had a couple of offers within the week.   All of the offers and interviews came from networking, mostly from my friends at church.

The offer I accepted came from one of my friends that I interacte with on a fairly regular basis.

My advice at this point is to constantly be networking with friends.  because you never know when you are going to need a new job.

I am still working towards my goal of pay for performance consulting.  We’ll just have to see what doors open for that.